Stressful Times & Good Times!

I am not good at this blogging thing! And especially when I haven't really had time to think about anything but Wedding, School, and my church calling as Relief Society president.

Things have been crazy this summer. I feel like it flew by. I start the Dental Hygiene program in less than two weeks. (August 17th is my first day). I am very excited and feel very blessed to be able to even get into the program but, most of all I am very very nervous. It's kind of a big deal you know. It is not like I can slack on these class or I will get kicked out of the program and this is my dream career. I know I will be less nervous after the first week when I understand how everything will be run and get to know the girls in my class. I just have this fear of it moving too fast and I am not able to keep up and everyone is picking up on things faster than me. It has been a constant fear of mine and I know where that fear and doubt are coming from and it is not my Heavenly Father for sure but, the adversary. I know that fear and doubt or inadequacy come from the adversary telling me that I am not good enough and that it’s going to be hard.

So besides that school is starting I am still Relief Society president in the Young Single Adult Branch. I don't think it would be as stressful for me right now if I didn't lose my presidency and had to start over with another one. I know they will be just as supportive to me as my last presidency was. I just knew my other consolers so well and knew I was able to depend on them and they actually did so much and made me look good...lol. Jenevieve Phillips was my first counselor and she left for Arizona and Julia was my second and she got married! Now I have a new first counselor but no second counselor yet.

I went to President West the branch President very stressed one day to tell him my concern of me being RS president. I wasn’t going there to tell him I couldn't do it anymore even though I feel that way. I was going there so he knew how I felt. I wanted to tell him that I felt that when school starts I am not going to be able to be the same RS presidency I am now. I felt that I wasn't going to be able to do everything I do for the girls, which I love my calling and I love those girls, that I might not be able attend to the girls as much as I should. I just wanted him to know I was concerned that the girls were going to get the short end of the stick and I didn't want to do that to them. He gave me some wise advice and said that sometimes in a calling you will have ups and downs but all our Heavenly Father wants us to do is try to do our best and that our Heavenly Father knows us so well that he will know what you are able to do give your situation. And he told me not to worry about doing everything. That’s a problem for me. When someone gives me a task or a calling or weather be school and studying I want to do my very best and if I can't do my best and it just meets the guidelines it’s not good enough for me or sometimes I just don't even want to attempt it if I won’t be able to do it well. I guess another problem is that once someone has seen you do your best you feel as if you have to always live up to that standard.

Besides stress I did have some fun this summer! I went strawberry Picking with some friends, my mom, Tamra, and the boys. Boating is always been a family activity for the summer! Went to the Beach!  And Brett has been progressing so well in the Fire Academy! He finished the fire side the begging of July and is now taking the EMT side! I am so proud of him!

Starwberry Picking

Tamra and the Boys

Mom picking away

The fire side of the Fire Acadamy

Mom and I at the Beach!

 BOATING!

The Pro

I promise I made a jump and landed it but this is the only one Brett got of me in the air!

Atlanta Temple Rededication!

The Atlanta Temple has been under reconstruction for about two years. And now it is finally back open!!! For the whole month of April it was open to the public to allow visitors and members of the church to be able to walk through it. Brett, my parents, Miranda and I all got to walk through last day of the open house. It was amazing and beautiful. There aren’t even words to describe the feelings I felt inside the Temple.

 I actually had the opportunity to walk through the Temple before we went as a family. The YSA branch had the assignment to clean the temple on April 19^th, but before we cleaned that night the temple tours where backed up so we were delayed on cleaning and they needed some help with the tour guides. One of the leaders in the YSA branch volunteered me to help do a walk through. Thank goodness I didn’t have to speak I was just supposed to make the group stay together and keep people moving. And I was afraid someone was going to ask me crazy questions and I wouldn’t know what to say because I mean I really could just turn to them and be like I don’t know this is my first time seeing this too…haha! But there were no crazy questions and the Spirit was felt very strong. 

The outside grounds changed a bit. They added more walking areas and pretty plants and flowers and beautiful stairs in the front that lead to the front door. For the inside I not sure what changed because like I said it was my first time seeing it besides the baptismal font, so whatever they did it looks amazing and beautiful. I do know they made a bigger waiting room equipped with big screen TV to show movies while family members and friends wait.

I can’t wait to go back to the Temple to get sealed to my eternal companion. It felt so right and amazing to walk through the Temple with Brett. We were both learning more about the Temple together. And we are both excited to partake in the blessing and ordinances performed in the House of the Lord! 

 

Along with being able to walk through the Temple Brett and I also had the opportunity to be inside the Temple when it was dedicated on May 1^st 2011. Our branch President I guess had extra tickets to the dedication and felt that we should be the lucky ones to have them. I thought being able to walk through the temple was spiritual, but this day had to top them all. Everyone was so reverent and it was so peaceful inside the temple. And knowing the prophet was not only in the same building with me he was only like a wall away…haha. I felt a powerful difference in the feelings I felt and the atmosphere as the Prophet Monson gave the dedication prayer. And when it was all over it took a while to get out of the temple with all the people that were able to attend inside, but it was fine with me I didn’t want to leave the Temple and I don’t think anyone was in a rush to get out. The whole month of April was an amazing month with Conference, Easter, and The Temple.

First Time Blogging!

Well I have officially joined the blogging world! Almost all my siblings have one and I have enjoyed reading there blogs to stay updated on their life’s, so thought I should start doing the same. Pulse it's kind of like an online journal!

As most of you know Brett and I our engaged and very excited to be getting married soon. We have not set a date yet. But I have a lot of planning to do between now and when ever that day maybe, but I have a lot of support between my friends and family.

 Brett final got his wish to come true. March 17th Brett started the fire academy with Atlanta fire. He has been enjoying every bit of it so far. I am so proud of him for working so hard in it as well. He wakes up at 5am Monday-Friday every morning to be at the fire academy in Atlanta at 7am and is there until 4pm ish. Then he sits in about 30-40min of traffic to get home and when he gets home he has been dedicating himself to study and read a head for the next day. I love to see his excitement of leaning about the fire service.

For me I am still in school and trying to get in the Dental Hygiene program. I applied for this coming falls class and made into the top 20 for interviews, but got a letter saying that I have been selected as an alternate. Meaning that if someone in the top 14, that they have selected, doesn't finish their requirements or decided not to go through with it that they would choose one of their alternates to take their place. So I don't know what I have in store for me this fall, but I do know whatever it might be its the plan the lord has for me and I am going to make the best of my situation either way. If I don't get in I planning on going back to school and re-take the two classes I got C's in and work part time somewhere.

I feel as that Brett and I have been very blessed this year with him getting not only on a fire department, but a stable fire department, we are happily engaged, we get to walk through the Atlanta Temple for its open house before its rededicated, and we will be starting our lives together soon! I love the gospel and the happiness it has brought me and my life and I am thankful that I was able to share this precious gift of the restored gospel with my soon to be eternal companion!